Thank you for being a good friend to me (I don't need to name names here because you know who you are!). I would love to be friend with everybody, but we have to be selective, don't you think so? Because we cant please everybody and not everybody can please us.
It hurt the most when I realised that some people want to be friend with me, not because for who I am, but rather for what they want to achieve.
I have this person who attracts my attention by clicking the 'like' button and commenting on every single thing I posted in my Facebook page. I don't exactly know why, but based on experience, I think he just want to dig some secrets about someone that both of us know. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right. I know we shouldn't be too sceptical or judgemental or whatever the word is, but for now, I just need to be careful
In a different story, a few weeks ago, I asked someone to help me with something. Well, actually, a friend of mine asked him on my behalf. He cant make it and instead of just say no, he told my other friend that he refused to help me because he is someone else's fiancé. What?? Why did he have to come out with that statement? I didn't ask him to do something that against the religion or the law. Plus, it didn't require us to be together alone in a place. There were other people too.
His statement really hurt my feeling. My friend said it is a small matter, don't make a big fuss about it. Yes, it is small to you, but not for me. His statement make me feel ugly!!!!! Am I looked desperate enough to steal someone else's fiancé? I've asked other people's husbands to help me previously, does it mean I want to steal them from their wives too?? I know I am lacking in so many ways, but I still have a brain to think what's wrong and what's right. After this, if I desperately need help from someone, for sure I will not asking the favour from him. I rather be in great difficulty than in great hurt feeling.
I should remind myself, it is not worth it to waste my time thinking about those people. It's almost 3am. I better get some sleep, and hope I'll be better tomorrow.
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